It’s Sunday, the start of a new week. My recap/regroup day!

This week, I fell into the black hole of deep cleaning. My house needed it badly, and now that deep cleaning is done, regular cleaning should be pretty easy and a whole lot less time consuming. I feel set up for a great, productive week.

I feel like I have a pretty good handle on what my week is going to look like too. I know what days I’m going to be busy and which days I’m going to be free. This helps TREMENDOUSLY because the days I have free, I know I can focus deeply on my work. The days I don’t have free, I will not be stressing about not working as much because I’m prepared for that.

My biggest struggle lately has been bouncing back from spontaneous activities. They agitate me so much, and I’m not sure why. Perhaps it’s because I feel a great lack of control over my life. I’ve never been a control freak, but I do like knowing some things are in my hands. Lately, it seems everything is out of my hands and I am at the whim of what everyone else thinks I should be doing. I should live like X, I need to fill my time with Y, and I need to be planning for Z, and none of those people have asked what I want to be doing or what I think I should be doing or what I’ve already got planned. Perhaps they do it because of a lack of control in their lives as well and I am an easy target. Generally, I am a people pleaser who doesn’t like to ruffle feathers. My goal in life is for everyone to be content. Maybe not blissfully happy, but content and not fighting with one another. Especially over petty things. Me and drama do not mix.

So I can be easy to walk all over. It’s my own flaw, I know. Every day I get a little bit better.

This week, I’m hoping to have control again, and I’m hoping that I can work on things for myself.